Here We Go AGAiN...

Here we go Again!!

It has been a crazy couple of weeks- so many emotions. Today, with excitement, we get to share the news that we have been MATCHED!! A birthmom picked us. And the baby is due in a month. Talk about a roller coater ride.

So what happened?

We knew that we wanted to keep pursuing adoption. So even before we left Florida (in regards to the twins)- we told the agency to keep us posted on situations that may arise. We also called our agency here in Ohio and told her the same thing. Adoption is full of unknowns- it could be years for us to be picked again or it could be weeks. For us, it was weeks.

About a week after we got home, Jadon out of the blue started to wrap his blanket in a ball and say this is my baby, my baby sister?? It was cute and heartbreaking at the same time. He still talks about his baby to this day. But baby sister?? Who knows where he got that one. I could understand if he said baby brother because that is what we kept telling him when waiting for the twins. After about a week, all of sudden we say a situation arise via Facebook.

We got the contract, looked things over, and submitted our profile. We got word the next day that the birthmom selected us as her first choice. That same day the situation was posted through our agency too. So we were happy to know that our agency deals with this lawyer. It gave us peace of mind.

We didn't know what to feel. My heart was still grieving the loss of the twins. So many questions were floating around in my head. So many fears. Can we do this again? What if the birthmom changes her mind again? What about the financial risk? etc. etc. etc. So we took a couple of days- spent many hours in prayer and talked with the lawyer. Finally, after talking with the birthmom, we made the decision to move forward!!

Yes!!! I got to have a wonderful, long conversation with the birthmom. What a blessing. I have to admit, I was scared and nervous to make the call. How do I start the conversation? What do I say? What do I ask? I couldn't even formulate all that I wanted to know. But after praying, I made the call and it was beautiful!!

At the beginning of our journey, back in June, I wrote a post about where we were going. When praying about which avenue to take with adoption (international verse domestic), I wrote: "My head kept saying: "domestic adoption is so much more money and we want to pursue an asian child" but my heart kept saying: "domestic adoption". So we began the process."

Guess what- this child to be born next month is Asian!!

So much to do again. Please hold us up in prayer, specifically for the rest of the journey, that the birthmom and I continue to have conversations, that the baby and birthmom remain healthy, and that God provides the remaining 8,000 needed for this adoption.

I will praise you, Lord, with all my heart; I will tell of all the marvelous things you have done.
Psalm 9:1