I got to see my BABY!!

It's a Girl!!

Today at 4 in the afternoon, Jason, Jadon, and I went to meet the birthmom. She is so sweet! She made us feel so welcomed. She was up and about and looking amazing for just delivery a baby yesterday.

She is a beautiful young woman from Thailand. Stands about 5 foot tall. Bubbly personality. And a warm heart. She told us about the delivery- which is a Crazy story. (I will share at a later date). Then she introduced us to the nurses on the floor as the Adoptive Parents. (a Big positive step). Then we headed for the NICU. Because of the delivery, the baby is in the NICU. She is so small at 5 pounds 4 ounces. Big chubby cheeks. Beautiful dark black hair (and ALOT of it). So ready for the bows already. I got to hold her. It was a surreal moment. I want to be respectful to the birthmom also. But at the same time I wanted to kiss and snuggle that gorgeous girl. But I froze. No tears. Just peace. It was as if I was in a dream.

Jason and Jadon watched from the window since children are not allowed in the NICU. I stayed in there for about an hour and a half. Holding. Feeding. Burping. My beautiful daughter. I am glad I didn't have to change a diaper :) I have never held a baby that small before. Nor have I ever been a mother to a newborn. But I am sure it will take me no time at all to get the hang of it.

Tomorrow the social worker will come and the birthmom will be able to go home. She plans on signing the papers. The tension in me is melting away. I am exhausted. Tomorrow is a big day. The baby will stay in the hospital until Monday. So we should have access to her but we will confirm that tomorrow. She is technically not in our custody (a McCabe) until we finalize the adoption in about 6 months. However, we will be able to take her with us from the hospital.

We are overjoyed. Singing praises to our King. God is good. (the baby and Jadon look like biological siblings). It is so cool :)

Thank you all for your prayers and words of encouragement. And I can't wait to introduce her.

Happy New Years!!

Maybe a visit today

Unfortunately we were unable to go to the hospital yesterday. It is the birthmom decision if she wants visitors. So we went to the hotel. Got to see my cousin and JJ got to play with his cousin Jackson. They were so cute. So excited to see each other.

We were able to get some sleep. Not much though. Prayed a lot last night.

Now today, I talked with birthmom via text and we will try to visit this afternoon. We need to take care of details in regards to our stay in Florida for a month. Then we will head over to Cocoa beach area.

Continue to pray for all involved.

BABY is BORN!

We got the text this morning at 7:49 from the lawyer that the BABY was BORN!!

Birthmom went into labor at 5 this morning. Don't have the full story but it was quick. Baby was 5 pounds 4 ounces 17 inches long. A little peanut.

On Christmas, I got the best present. A text from the birthmom. Since then, we have been chatting via text. So we made plans to leave for Florida yesterday. We drove most of the way down- stopped in Charleston for the night. Birthmom was having trouble getting to the doctors, so we were unsure exactly when baby was due. January 1 was the estimate date but not confirmed. So we took a leap of faith and left yesterday.

Then we got the news this morning. We are on cloud 9. We have a six hour drive. But we are on the way to the hospital to meet the birthmom!!! She wants to meet the three of us. Whether or not we get to see the baby we are unsure.

So what is next. The clock has started. In 48 hours the birthmom will or will not sign the papers. If she does, the baby comes with us. We will have to stay in Florida for about a month. Which we found a condo on the beach through family and these people are giving us a very reduced rate for the month. Praise the Lord.

I will keep posting. We will reveal the sex and name once Baby is with us. Pray for us- it is an exciting time but not over yet. Pray for the birthmom- I can't even imagine how she is feeling. How hard, how many mixed emotions! Pray for a sweet time between her and I today.

Thank you Jesus- for a healthy baby has been born today!

The Million Dollar Question....

What is going on? That is the million dollar question these days.

Three weeks ago, we decided to move forward with this adoption. I even had the blessing of talking to the birthmom several times either via phone or text. All parties were excited.

Two weeks ago was the last time I heard from the Birthmom or attorney. I believe she had a doctor's appointment yesterday.

Waiting is Hard. Waiting with NO Information is even harder. I have no idea if she went to the appointment. No idea what the doctor said. Or how the baby is doing. Or how the birthmom is doing. With lack of information, your mind tends to fill in the blanks (even if it is not truth). So my mind has been in overdrive.

Did she change her mind?

Can I go through another failed adoption?

Will I get any information? Any lifeline?

What is going on?

But that is adoption. I must respect the fact that the birthmom is going through a very difficult time. Even if her intentions are the best, her follow through may look different. And I have to be ok with that. I must respect the fact that the lawyer is busy. I am not his only case. There may be more pressing matters than my curiosity.

So I wait. So I pray. I have my moments. My doubt. My fear. And then I continue to turn to the Cross. God is sufficient. His grace is enough.

Christ went through the suffering of the cross to adopt me (and you). I can go through a small suffering for this baby. For the Joy of the Lord is my strength.

Continue to pray for us. Birthmom is 38 weeks pregnant (we think). So she can go into labor anytime. As we draw closer to the due date- fears intensifies, doubt intensifies. Pray that we remain with the peace of Christ. That we will be obedient in this journey. That we will hear some kind of word and soon.

Merry Christmas!