The Million Dollar Question....

What is going on? That is the million dollar question these days.

Three weeks ago, we decided to move forward with this adoption. I even had the blessing of talking to the birthmom several times either via phone or text. All parties were excited.

Two weeks ago was the last time I heard from the Birthmom or attorney. I believe she had a doctor's appointment yesterday.

Waiting is Hard. Waiting with NO Information is even harder. I have no idea if she went to the appointment. No idea what the doctor said. Or how the baby is doing. Or how the birthmom is doing. With lack of information, your mind tends to fill in the blanks (even if it is not truth). So my mind has been in overdrive.

Did she change her mind?

Can I go through another failed adoption?

Will I get any information? Any lifeline?

What is going on?

But that is adoption. I must respect the fact that the birthmom is going through a very difficult time. Even if her intentions are the best, her follow through may look different. And I have to be ok with that. I must respect the fact that the lawyer is busy. I am not his only case. There may be more pressing matters than my curiosity.

So I wait. So I pray. I have my moments. My doubt. My fear. And then I continue to turn to the Cross. God is sufficient. His grace is enough.

Christ went through the suffering of the cross to adopt me (and you). I can go through a small suffering for this baby. For the Joy of the Lord is my strength.

Continue to pray for us. Birthmom is 38 weeks pregnant (we think). So she can go into labor anytime. As we draw closer to the due date- fears intensifies, doubt intensifies. Pray that we remain with the peace of Christ. That we will be obedient in this journey. That we will hear some kind of word and soon.

Merry Christmas!