37 and counting...

What a journey this has been. So many emotions. So much going through my mind.. We finally got an update today. Our situation yields very little information. Waiting with no information is harder than I thought. My mind wanders in so many directions like: is this a scam? what if the babies are in distress? What is she had the babies and the state took them? Lies, Lies, Lies... but it is hard for me not to go down that road. I questioned if I did the right thing and let people come along this journey with us. People comments play a role in my doubts. But then on the flip side, so many people have held me in prayer and that is the only thing getting me through this journey. So I made the right decision. Continue to pray- pray for strength for me so that I can continue to fight these negative thoughts.

The wait has gotten slightly easier because Jason came down on Saturday. He is blessed by a company that is allowing him to work remotely until the babies are born. Almost 3 weeks apart from each other was too much to bear for our family.

Now onto baby news- Birthmom is 37 weeks pregnant. That is crazy. Only 15% of all twins make it to 38 weeks, which she will be on Sunday. Birthmom is healthy! Praise the Lord. Babies are looking good too. Praise the Lord. Both babies are breech so a scheduled c-section will be in the future. When that will be is yet to be determined. Our situation should change tomorrow (can't go in to details). We still will only get little nuggets of information. But now there may be a chance I can meet her. I should know on Monday if that is a possibility.

The whole reason I came down so early was that our situation was possibly gonna change on Oct.1 and I would have had a chance to meet her. Obviously it didn't happen. But that was a risk I was willing to take. Now the situation may change tomorrow. We are praying we can meet her. And this time Jason would be here too.

Pray for strength for all involved. Birthmom is HUGE (from what we hear). It must be very uncomfortable for her. She needs strength for the rest of this journey, delivery, and afterwards. Pray for strength for the babies to endure the c-section and to be born healthy with no NICU. Pray for strength for us as we wait.

Maybe next post will be about babies being born :)