Waiting is HARD.
I know the end is drawing near and my mind is going crazy. When a woman is pregnant, she is able to control what she is eating, her medical care, how the baby is moving, and can better be prepared with the arrival of the baby. Unfortunately, I am in a non-typical adoption situation. I have no idea about medical care. Last I heard about the babies was at 32 weeks (they were healthy)- but now we are at 35 weeks. I have no idea what the birth mom is eating, is she resting, is she taking care of herself, is she still smoking, etc. So many questions are going through my mind and most of them can't be answered. Then I have the adoption portion- will she sign the papers, what is the process, what's next, etc. Right now there is nothing to do but wait. Insurance, court papers, hospital bills, naming the children, etc are all up in the air. So many things won't be answered until it is happening. I am a planner- so this process is hard.
I am in Florida to help with the wait- the sunshine, the beach, the Hot temperatures. It is helping but my insides are going crazy. No sleep, anxious stomach, and traveling. What a combination. Hopefully at the end of this all will be two beautiful healthy baby boys. I must keep trusting in the Lord. Seeking Him continually throughout the day. And take one hour at a time.
Continue to pray for us, the babies, and the birth mom.
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