{Long Week}

It has only been a week since we collided with a bump in the road. Boy, does it seem like forever. My mind is constantly filled with thoughts regarding this adoption. Not a minute goes by without it flooding my mind. That's why this week has seemed so long.

No new updates. We are just sitting, waiting, and resting in the faithfulness of our God!

My thoughts are consumed mostly with praying for courage and strength for the birth mother. That she will find peace as she deals with some difficult things. I pray she takes a step of faith and comes out of hiding. I pray that people surround her with love and encouragement as she must face her past. The consequences are unescapable. And there needs to be consequences. We all need consequences. But I pray she knows that God is with her and with him all things are possible.

I constantly have a battle in my own mind. The enemy tries to fill me with fear. The enemy tries to fill me with doubt. Is it coincident that hours after I finish writing the first chapter of my book (which deals with fear) this situation arises? I think not. It says in the bible that the battle is not here, it is against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Not that I like to think about spiritual warfare, but I do believe it exists. Just because I can't see it, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. We are not only fighting for the physical life of these twins and everyone involved but more so the spiritual life of all involved.

The cool thing is that this past week I have been putting into practice all the advice and tips I am writing about in my book. What a blessing. Even in the midst of fear (losing the twins), I sing with praise on my lips. I draw closer to my God. I seek refuge in Him. I am resting in the joy of this hard time.

Continue to pray with me. Pray mostly for the birth mom as mentioned above. Pray also for the health of the twins. That God holds them in the womb and helps to grow their precious bodies. Pray that the stress of everything going on does not begin pre-term labor. Pray for the health, rest, and nutrition of the birth mom. Pray for us that we continue to rest in God's loving arms.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding (Proverbs 3:5 NIV)