{Paper Ready}

Can I get a HOORAY!!

After some hang ups, we are finally paper ready. Basically our homestudy is complete. As I stated in the last post, this should have happened back in April. But with adoption, nothing ever goes smoothly or on a consistent timeline. So now I am "Paper Ready" and "Paper Pregnant"

For two months I have been on pins and needles, waiting daily to hear that everything has been done. If you have gone through the adoption process, you can understand the stress, the emotions of "waiting". Where a day can seem like an eternity. I know in the end, I will look back upon this and it will all have seemed to go by fast. But for now, I am in it and it is hard. Some days I have no hope: no hope that this adoption will ever happen. But I must remain joyful and hopeful. In God's timing, our child will unite with us.

So tonight I am going to exhale and enjoy the completion of this step in the process. I am not going to think about all that happened over the last few months and I am not going to think about the long obstacles that still lie ahead. I am just breathing in the here and now.